Wake up, brush my teeth, and take time to breathe
Allowing myself time off because it’s “only going to last for two weeks”
Wake up, greet the day, and switch the alarm to snooze
I devote my hours to catch up on late work, and then turn on the evening news
Wake up, but today I lay mesmerized, an enslaved resident, trapped in a world on my phone
I don’t break free, until sleep takes away me and the rest of my time zone
Wake up, still dreaming about times before
Meanwhile my conscious is split, my psyche declares a war
The idea of the old still lingers in my mind like an aftertaste
While recently, my days have felt repetitive, a copy and paste
Wake up, releasing a deranged scream to be trapped inside my pillow
A part of me succumbed to the pressure, and I cling to loss like a stubborn widow
I attempt to break away, try to meditate
But the voices are especially loud today, I’m still confined, and I can’t seem to concentrate
Let’s try something new, take a hike around the block
Gazing at the lovely scenery while indulging in hopeful self talk
Replying back, interacting with these voices
It seems to be the only thing that quiets the loud noises
I am completely. And utterly. Alone.
A leaden mind, oppressed with deficiencies in the serotonin hormone
As I muse my eyes begin to swell with tears
Imagining the future with all it’s possible probabilities and fears
You want to travel somewhere close?
Not without getting a cotton swap shoved up your nose!
You want to go to a restaurant, dine in for a meal?
The only human interaction you’ll get is with your server, hope that’s ideal!
Something to make my anxious thoughts lay serene
Something new! Something different! Something like... a vaccine?